Im such a douche.



Fuck.

they come to snuff the rooster.






Update, kinda.

Maybe one day Ill also stop feeling like the song writer is using sarcasm to hide true feelings. Even happy songs sound deeper to me than normal, maybe even more than they intended. After Nowell, Im a little skeptical of them all being ballin' ass hustlas and actually feeling it. Cudi does that to me a lot... I start to wonder what hes like in person... I also started paying more attention to the people I hung out with. [shit went down] I cant help but wonder what theyre thinking. Some of them seem so fucking sad.

Maybe one day I'll hold on to my good shit and start up a portfolio... only problem with that is after a few days of staring at one of the pictures they all start to look like shit, if they didnt from the begining... I need to scan the shit before I give it away so I at least have a computer document of it... damn...

I dont know how I supposed to feel right now. Im usually an optimstic person, but, fuck. We all feel that low low, I guess.


No ones feelin it like me right now.
Anyway, this isnt really to anyone... since I hardly talk to any of you...

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